Wonderful happenings!
I’ve always felt not included with the rest of my age group. Obviously, my accident and its timing in my life played a huge role in that.
No I’m still a little different, but that’s because we’re all different. I actually fit in.
This is a very good thing. I’m very happy to feel normal. Well, as normal as I can be. I’m still a goofy weirdo, but it’s because of who I am, not because of what happened to me.
I’m very happy.
Maybe it’s Spring Fever, or maybe it’s that it’s no longer tax season, but I just can’t get some things out of my mind. I’ve just been going nuts!
I love that it is so nice out!
I swear, when I do anything, I come away with at least two girls’ numbers. Such was the case tonight. I went to the Lake Harriet Kick-off event, and one woman loved dancing with me, and her friend loved talking to me. They were both in their mid-thirties. I don’t waste my time with young girls – too easy. Too much drama.
Right now I’m looking for friends. It just so happens that I want a lot of beautiful lady friends. 😉
This brings me to my new term: one of my friends always found guys, and they were always douches.
I told her that she should only date friends because then she’ll actually know them well enough so they’re not bad. Also, then they’ll have an interest in her well-being.
She finally started seeing one of our friends. It’s a secret: no one but me knows (she doesn’t have any girl best friends). They’re not really dating right now.
I told her what they were. They’re kissy-face friends. They just hang out and are cool, but sometimes they do the kissy-face thing, or wherever it goes.
That’s pretty much what I’m looking for, too. I want a kick ass friend with whom I can be close. I guess it’s kind of friends with benefits, but I think that has a bad rep for its attempt to be emotionless. Kissy-face friends just triesto minimize things. Limit official labels.
For me, with the ASI event began something awesome that I can’t explain. Women just seem to be in to me. I’m resisting being in to them, too. I’m waiting until I find the right one, then she’ll have it super good.
No one in their right mind will tell you I’m a low key person. But I do enjoy occasional low key moments.
For instance, today I sat on my porch and listened as the rain steadily pattered on the roof. The steady beat is given some dynamic additives as the rain collects in some areas, falling suddenly and hitting a tarp or the grill cover, creating a slightly louder, higher pitched note than the rest of the rain.
When life runs at the pace I set, low key moments like these must be enjoyed occasionally.
Someday the right woman will appreciate these things with me, but until she can, this is great.
I went to the Memory Lanes block party. I caught the headline band outside, and that was pretty cool. The music was okay, but they put on a good show (pyrotechnics, fireworks, props, etc.).
But after that show, the next band played inside. Man-oh-man, did you miss out. It was a pretty darn good Hall and Oats cover band. They played all the great H&O songs plus other songs you’d hear on 108.
So after hashing #grownassman, I decided to follow it. What I found was most totally ghetto posts, but then I saw something distinctly different, so I read it. I liked it, so here it is:
Note that while a grown ass man says what he feels, etc., it may be necessary for him to be cool and just have fun. Basically, he’s not going to worry about the relationship, since that will take care of itself. No, his job is to have fun and be happy. This means “Don’t think too much or at least keep your mouth shut and don’t be a drama queen.”
As Cindy Lauper best said, girls just want to have fun.
I went to a big social event on Friday with a friend. I thought it would be good for him to meet some new people.
It turns out it wasn’t his kind of event. He doesn’t like dancing and isn’t very outgoing, so he doesn’t really enjoy places where he doesn’t know people.
After touring the castle, he said he was bored.
Then we left. If It was my choice, I would’ve stayed and dance. Those kinds of events are the events at which I tend to start the dance party.
At pretty much any 20s & 30s event with music, I start the dance party. I just dance with one person for a half a song. Eventually another. Sooner or later, someone else joins in. Before you know it, lots of people are dancing or watching. Events I recall are:
Maybe I’m always just the first, but I do have a history of starting some trends.
Anyways, I decided I’m not going to bring that friend to big social events anymore. I actually bought his ticket for that event, too. He’s kind of a downer sometimes.
I was talking with Al tonight. Al is an awesome body builder at my gym who is a wise old man about some things. He is old. In his 60s, I think. Okay, so retired-body builder He’s given me tips on how to increase my definition that have worked. But about this, he just said it wouldn’t make sense to hang out with someone who doesn’t let me be myself. And it doesn’t.
So I’m not going to hang out with that friend at large social events anymore. I can usually find or make friends if I go solo. But I’d much prefer to go with a friend.
When I am with people, I have of mind, usually totally. This is a good thing sometimes, and it’s bad sometimes too.
It’s good because I can focus on solving a problem. It’s food because I do don’t just process what is needed, but I make sure it looks good in my mind. For instance, I found a slight discrepancy even filing the Sales tax return for April. For one item, there were Minneapolis sales that were not in Hennepin County.
Kind of odd of you think about it.
Apparently I found an error in the computer process that’s been going on since 2005.
I notice things because when I’m working on something, I’m not thinking about what I’m doing after work; I’m thinking about all the attributes of the work and making sure they all agree.
Presence can be good, but it can also be bad. Then I go on a first date, I always have an attention distraction. That way, I don’t focus on the lady with whom I am.
It can also be bad because it can make me oblivious. For instance, I was just at a big party with my friend, and I totally didn’t notice my other friend until he pointed her out to me.
One would think that I would keep my eyes open, but I can easily get lost in what I’m doing. I like people, and everything turns out well in the end, which makes me seemingly not care. I care, but certain things in life are beyond my control. Other people are so complex that I don’t try to have any control over them. I just let life do the steering.
I’ve learned from my own experience. Someone once tried to make a play, and I think my response was unexpected. Therefore, I don’t try to control someone.
On that note, I do try to influence things, of course. If I haven’t talked to someone for a long time and would like to, I might send them a note.
I believe in the natural order of things. Life will let me meet the right friends at the right time. Long past are my days of trying – I’m just myself, and that gives others a fair choice. That was my flaw in the past: I tried, and I had an undefined self.
I love who I am.
Justin